The Wild Divine
by Ada Limón
After we tumbled and fought and tumbled again,
he and I sat out in the backyard before his parents
came home, flushed and flowered and buzzing
with the quickening ripples of blood growing up
and I could barely feel my hands, my limbs numbed
from the new touching that seemed strikingly
natural but also painfully kindled in the body’s stove.
Oh my newness! Oh my new obsession, his hands!
I thought I could die and be happy and be humbled
by luck of a first love and a first full-fledged fuck.
I wanted to tell my ma. I wanted to make a movie.
I wanted to blast out of my bare feet to sky-town
as we passed the joint in the soupy summer’s air
too-spiced with oak leaves, eucalyptus, and smoke.
I thought I might have a heart attack, kind of craved
one, kind of wanted the bum-rush of goodbye
like every kid wants when they’re finally on fire.
Then, out of the stoned-breath quiet of the hills,
came another animal, a real animal, a wandering
madrone-skinned horse from the neighbor’s garden,
bowed-back, higher than a man’s hat, high up
and hitched to nothing. He rustled down his giant
head to where we sat, baked and big-eyed at this
animal come to greet us in our young afterglow.
He seemed almost worthy of complete devotion.
We rubbed his long horse nose, his marble eyes turning
to take us all in, to inhale us, to accept our now-selves
and he was older, a wise, hoofed, grizzled, equine elder
and I thought, this was what it was to be blessed—
to know a love that was beyond an owning, beyond
the body and its needs, but went straight from wild
thing to wild thing, approving of its wildness.
by Ada Limón
After we tumbled and fought and tumbled again,
he and I sat out in the backyard before his parents
came home, flushed and flowered and buzzing
with the quickening ripples of blood growing up
and I could barely feel my hands, my limbs numbed
from the new touching that seemed strikingly
natural but also painfully kindled in the body’s stove.
Oh my newness! Oh my new obsession, his hands!
I thought I could die and be happy and be humbled
by luck of a first love and a first full-fledged fuck.
I wanted to tell my ma. I wanted to make a movie.
I wanted to blast out of my bare feet to sky-town
as we passed the joint in the soupy summer’s air
too-spiced with oak leaves, eucalyptus, and smoke.
I thought I might have a heart attack, kind of craved
one, kind of wanted the bum-rush of goodbye
like every kid wants when they’re finally on fire.
Then, out of the stoned-breath quiet of the hills,
came another animal, a real animal, a wandering
madrone-skinned horse from the neighbor’s garden,
bowed-back, higher than a man’s hat, high up
and hitched to nothing. He rustled down his giant
head to where we sat, baked and big-eyed at this
animal come to greet us in our young afterglow.
He seemed almost worthy of complete devotion.
We rubbed his long horse nose, his marble eyes turning
to take us all in, to inhale us, to accept our now-selves
and he was older, a wise, hoofed, grizzled, equine elder
and I thought, this was what it was to be blessed—
to know a love that was beyond an owning, beyond
the body and its needs, but went straight from wild
thing to wild thing, approving of its wildness.
